Baby girl's heart rate did exactly what they wanted it to. So the non-stress test went beautifully. The ultrasound showed that she has plenty of amniotic fluid still.
Monday, I will have the same two tests repeated.
What we did learn is that baby girl is posterior. She is head down, but she is facing upwards. This can sometimes mean that it's harder for my body to go into labor, or to progress. The fact that I've been having contractions for over a week that just give me false hope that labor has started is probably a signal that my body is TRYING to progress, but having trouble because of her position.
It doesn't mean that my body won't eventually go into labor. But it could make it more difficult.
I've been doing exercises for weeks to get her into a good position because my mothering instinct told me she is sunny-side up. So today, I am heading to the chiropractor, then spending most of my day dedicated to doing positioning techniques to get her to turn her little head around.
The good news is that it is totally possible for her to still get into a good position. And the other good news is that once she goes into the right position, labor normally progresses very quickly because my body has been practicing for the last week!
Going to work on getting this baby turned using Spinning Babies techniques. Also going to turn on my hypnosis music and visualize her turning into the correct position.
Thank you so much for all of your awesome support over the last few days, and throughout this pregnancy. I've even gotten some lurkers to post their stories, and I so appreciate knowing more about my readers! I've been a pain in the butt during this waiting game - there's no denying that. Please continue sending positive vibes to me and baby and hopefully we can get this little one out of me!
Suddenly, I have some renewed hope :)
Friday, July 30, 2010
Emotional Roller Coaster
This whole waiting game has me on an emotional roller coaster. I have moments, even several hours of convincing myself to be optimistic, that baby girl WILL decide to come on her own. Maybe she is just incredibly stubborn and does not want to be pushed. I've talked to her and made it clear that we aren't pushing her, and that we'll be waiting and there when she's ready to come. Then I've wondered if she's like Ian and laid back and doesn't even realize it's time to come out. So I've told her it's time, and that we're here and waiting anxiously for her to come. I've bribed my child. I've told her that there are cute clothes and shoes waiting for her to try on and look adorable in.
Then I have moments/hours of feeling completely discouraged, thinking that she won't come on her own and we'll force her to come out through induction. This thought makes me so upset. Of all people to have to be induced, I would be devastated. Many women opt to be induced because that's what they are comfortable with. Others have to be induced because of medical reasons. But me - I might have to be induced because my baby or body aren't working. I've planned and looked forward to having a natural labor where I don't have to be hooked up to an IV or drugs because I can labor at home for as long as possible. I knew this would be best for my anxiety, and therefore best for baby. Now, at the thought of needing medical assistance to help this baby move out of my belly makes my anxiety sky rocket, and sends me into fits of tears. Will they need to drug me for my anxiety? I was really hoping to avoid that. But every hospital stay I've ever had, I have needed something to help with my anxiety. I don't want that to be the atmosphere that my baby is born into. I picture her coming out into a calm atmosphere where I have been relaxed and worked hard to get her there.
I start questioning everything. Does our baby girl not want to meet us? Is she not ready? Is something wrong with my body, or worse, her, and that's why she hasn't come yet?
I'm angry. Angry at my body for not moving forward. I'm nervous. I'm devastated. I'm slowly losing hope. I'm scared. And all at the same time, I'm ready. And toying with all of these emotions, I'm so freaking excited to meet our baby. But I just don't know what is going on.
Pulling myself together to go to my ultrasound. Praying that all is okay and we can wait another few days. I want to give her as much time as possible to come on her own.
Then I have moments/hours of feeling completely discouraged, thinking that she won't come on her own and we'll force her to come out through induction. This thought makes me so upset. Of all people to have to be induced, I would be devastated. Many women opt to be induced because that's what they are comfortable with. Others have to be induced because of medical reasons. But me - I might have to be induced because my baby or body aren't working. I've planned and looked forward to having a natural labor where I don't have to be hooked up to an IV or drugs because I can labor at home for as long as possible. I knew this would be best for my anxiety, and therefore best for baby. Now, at the thought of needing medical assistance to help this baby move out of my belly makes my anxiety sky rocket, and sends me into fits of tears. Will they need to drug me for my anxiety? I was really hoping to avoid that. But every hospital stay I've ever had, I have needed something to help with my anxiety. I don't want that to be the atmosphere that my baby is born into. I picture her coming out into a calm atmosphere where I have been relaxed and worked hard to get her there.
I start questioning everything. Does our baby girl not want to meet us? Is she not ready? Is something wrong with my body, or worse, her, and that's why she hasn't come yet?
I'm angry. Angry at my body for not moving forward. I'm nervous. I'm devastated. I'm slowly losing hope. I'm scared. And all at the same time, I'm ready. And toying with all of these emotions, I'm so freaking excited to meet our baby. But I just don't know what is going on.
Pulling myself together to go to my ultrasound. Praying that all is okay and we can wait another few days. I want to give her as much time as possible to come on her own.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Hopeful
I went to acupuncture yesterday for the 2nd time in the past week. I made sure to tell him that I was super anxious about labor starting soon, so he made sure to address that with my treatment.
I felt so great leaving there. Much more upbeat, relaxed, and generally just feeling better about the yesterday's appointment.
I then went grocery shopping for some things for a yummy dinner. I got home and turned on some dance music and danced in the kitchen while I did the dishes and made Chocolate Peanut Butter Bars. Ian got home and mistook my good mood for me being in labor. But then was happy to know that I was feeling better about things.
After our yummy dinner, we tested the dessert and it was TO DIE FOR. Seriously, SO good. Finally, we started watching a movie and then I finally crashed - I wasn't able to get a nap in yesterday so I was pretty wiped out.
I also heard from a high school friend on facebook that she went naturally 9 days late so to have faith. Her story cheered me up and made me realize that so much can happen before next Tuesday. I'm cautiously optimistic that baby girl will come on her own.
Now, off to keep busy today!
If you know of a labor story where someone went super past her due date without being induced, please share it with me!
I felt so great leaving there. Much more upbeat, relaxed, and generally just feeling better about the yesterday's appointment.
I then went grocery shopping for some things for a yummy dinner. I got home and turned on some dance music and danced in the kitchen while I did the dishes and made Chocolate Peanut Butter Bars. Ian got home and mistook my good mood for me being in labor. But then was happy to know that I was feeling better about things.
After our yummy dinner, we tested the dessert and it was TO DIE FOR. Seriously, SO good. Finally, we started watching a movie and then I finally crashed - I wasn't able to get a nap in yesterday so I was pretty wiped out.
I also heard from a high school friend on facebook that she went naturally 9 days late so to have faith. Her story cheered me up and made me realize that so much can happen before next Tuesday. I'm cautiously optimistic that baby girl will come on her own.
Now, off to keep busy today!
If you know of a labor story where someone went super past her due date without being induced, please share it with me!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Update
Everything is fine. Have an ultrasound scheduled for Friday and Monday to check amniotic fluid levels and baby's position and heartrate. Have a check-up next Monday with the midwives. If no baby by Monday night, induction is scheduled for next Tuesday.
Hearing that an induction has been penciled in made me have a mini breakdown. Don't want to get to that point. Every single thing about an induction would go against what I want. I understand it works beautifully for some women. But for me, someone who hates anything medical and that's the main reason I'm going naturally, an induction would be a very traumatic and anxiety producing event for me.
Saying prayers that this baby comes as soon as possible, on her own time.
Hearing that an induction has been penciled in made me have a mini breakdown. Don't want to get to that point. Every single thing about an induction would go against what I want. I understand it works beautifully for some women. But for me, someone who hates anything medical and that's the main reason I'm going naturally, an induction would be a very traumatic and anxiety producing event for me.
Saying prayers that this baby comes as soon as possible, on her own time.
Wishing Good Thoughts
I'm thinking positively as I head to my midwife this morning for a check-up. I don't know exactly what will happen besides being checked and getting a non-stress test. She may order an ultrasound to check the amniotic fluid level and the placenta. I will also talk with her about possibly stripping my membranes to see if that will naturally get things going. I've read up on it and it seems that if your body is ready, stripping the membranes can just send you into labor, but if your body isn't ready, nothing happens. I figure it might be worth a try!
I have faith that everything is still going well with both me and baby. I will just be relieved when they assure me of that so that I can continue to wait for this little one to come on her own. On the off chance that something doesn't seem quite right, they will likely schedule an induction in the next couple days. Obviously, with wanting to go natural and labor at home as long as possible, an induction is not appealing to me.
Last night, I made a very strong cup of red raspberry leaf tea (3 bags to 1 cup), and then tried black cohosh tinxture that my doula gave me yesterday when she came to visit me. I had lots of contractions, but I normally have lots of contractions at night so it didn't seem abnormal. They came more frequently than they normally do, but the intensity was right about how they normally are.
My doula calmed me down a bit yesterday. She reminded me that if all women went naturally, that we would see most 1st time moms go about this far past their due dates. But so many OBs are now inducing once a woman hits 40 weeks, regardless of whether there is a medical necessity. Or women are getting anxious and opting to be induced. This reminder helped me calm down a little bit. I'm letting my body and baby decide when the timing is right. I'm hoping that the timing is soon!
I have faith that everything is still going well with both me and baby. I will just be relieved when they assure me of that so that I can continue to wait for this little one to come on her own. On the off chance that something doesn't seem quite right, they will likely schedule an induction in the next couple days. Obviously, with wanting to go natural and labor at home as long as possible, an induction is not appealing to me.
Last night, I made a very strong cup of red raspberry leaf tea (3 bags to 1 cup), and then tried black cohosh tinxture that my doula gave me yesterday when she came to visit me. I had lots of contractions, but I normally have lots of contractions at night so it didn't seem abnormal. They came more frequently than they normally do, but the intensity was right about how they normally are.
My doula calmed me down a bit yesterday. She reminded me that if all women went naturally, that we would see most 1st time moms go about this far past their due dates. But so many OBs are now inducing once a woman hits 40 weeks, regardless of whether there is a medical necessity. Or women are getting anxious and opting to be induced. This reminder helped me calm down a little bit. I'm letting my body and baby decide when the timing is right. I'm hoping that the timing is soon!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Discouraged at 41 Weeks Pregnant
I start back to school 4 weeks from today. To say that I am anxious to have this baby is an understatement at this point in time. I've watched all of my pregnant bloggy friends welcome their bundles of joy. I've watched birth announcements appear on facebook from friends who were due 1, 2, and even 3 weeks after me.
I am getting so stressed out about having less than 4 weeks to adjust to mommyhood before I go back to school and have to be alert and on my A-game. I have less than 4 weeks to build up a milk supply for the times I won't be here to breastfeed. Time is ticking and I have no baby here with me yet.
Don't get be wrong - I am incredibly grateful that I am having such a healthy pregnancy that I do not need to be induced for medical reasons. I have practioners who are very supportive of natural birth, and aren't discussing induction yet.
I'm just feeling tired. People keep saying "get some sleep", "go do things that you won't be able to do once she's here", "go out with hubby for date night", "go to the movies." I am getting tons of sleep at night and taking at least one nap per day. I am trying to get out once per day to go do something. I am taking walks with Tessa and snuggling with her a lot. Ian and I are enjoying each other's company while we're still just the two of us. I am enjoying my time by myself! But I'm just really ready.
I had been feeling very confident about labor and delivery. But the fact that I am now 1 week past my EDD and have had a few previews of real contractions that don't amount to anything makes me feel so discouraged. Why isn't my body ready? Is baby not ready? And if so, why? Is she in a bad position and that's why I keep getting previews that don't amount to anything? Labor begins when baby's body sends signals via hormones to my body, and then my body begins producing hormones to speed things up. Why isn't her cute body sending me signals? Or why isn't my body responding to them?
People keep suggesting that maybe our due date was off. But I know that I tested positive extremely early and not to give a lot of information, but I pretty much know down to the day that our little one was conceived. So basically we just have a stubborn baby on our hands.
I didn't know whether to put all of these thoughts out there because I know there are so many people out there who would give just about anything to be pregnant and in this position. I am incredibly grateful that me and baby are both healthy. I'm just ready for her to be here. To hold her. To snuggle her. To care for her. To love her. Well, the loving part already started when I saw that plus sign 10 months ago. But I'm ready.
I am getting so stressed out about having less than 4 weeks to adjust to mommyhood before I go back to school and have to be alert and on my A-game. I have less than 4 weeks to build up a milk supply for the times I won't be here to breastfeed. Time is ticking and I have no baby here with me yet.
Don't get be wrong - I am incredibly grateful that I am having such a healthy pregnancy that I do not need to be induced for medical reasons. I have practioners who are very supportive of natural birth, and aren't discussing induction yet.
I'm just feeling tired. People keep saying "get some sleep", "go do things that you won't be able to do once she's here", "go out with hubby for date night", "go to the movies." I am getting tons of sleep at night and taking at least one nap per day. I am trying to get out once per day to go do something. I am taking walks with Tessa and snuggling with her a lot. Ian and I are enjoying each other's company while we're still just the two of us. I am enjoying my time by myself! But I'm just really ready.
I had been feeling very confident about labor and delivery. But the fact that I am now 1 week past my EDD and have had a few previews of real contractions that don't amount to anything makes me feel so discouraged. Why isn't my body ready? Is baby not ready? And if so, why? Is she in a bad position and that's why I keep getting previews that don't amount to anything? Labor begins when baby's body sends signals via hormones to my body, and then my body begins producing hormones to speed things up. Why isn't her cute body sending me signals? Or why isn't my body responding to them?
People keep suggesting that maybe our due date was off. But I know that I tested positive extremely early and not to give a lot of information, but I pretty much know down to the day that our little one was conceived. So basically we just have a stubborn baby on our hands.
I didn't know whether to put all of these thoughts out there because I know there are so many people out there who would give just about anything to be pregnant and in this position. I am incredibly grateful that me and baby are both healthy. I'm just ready for her to be here. To hold her. To snuggle her. To care for her. To love her. Well, the loving part already started when I saw that plus sign 10 months ago. But I'm ready.
Monday, July 26, 2010
A quick answer
Have you had that baby yet?
Okay, now that that question has been answered, here's a quick recap of our weekend. Waiting around, sitting around, and more waiting around. But besides that, we did get out to do a couple things. Saturday morning I woke up and thought, screw this, I'm making plans! So we went out and had crabs with some people. I am a true Maryland girl, and love, love, love crabs (with Old Bay of course). The more I think about it, going out for crabs was a fantastic idea. Most other foods/meals I can get for takeout or we can have once we can take baby girl out with us. But, picking crabs is a messy business and basically only a summertime one. Picking up a newborn to feed her would be out of the question. So it was a great time!
Sunday morning we got up early and headed off to a surprise get together for our friend's 30th. Had it not been about 100 degrees (literally) and an outdoor event, it would've been a perfect setting. It was on the water on a barge and the view was amazing. But the heat got to me fairly quickly and we had to leave.
After that, we came home and relaxed in the A/C. Our cousins from New England were sightseeing in Baltimore for the weekend so they stopped by just to say hi. We took a little walk up the street with their two kids and got ice (which you know I just happen to love). Then they got on the road for their 7 hour ride home. Glad we got to see them.
Then, it was a huge nap for me while Ian relaxed and played video games. We finished off the weekend with some food cooked out on the grill.
So happy that the storms yesterday cooled things off here. Now, I'm off to take a walk with Tessa. And then I'll be hanging out, waiting around for this little girl to be finished brewing.
Okay, now that that question has been answered, here's a quick recap of our weekend. Waiting around, sitting around, and more waiting around. But besides that, we did get out to do a couple things. Saturday morning I woke up and thought, screw this, I'm making plans! So we went out and had crabs with some people. I am a true Maryland girl, and love, love, love crabs (with Old Bay of course). The more I think about it, going out for crabs was a fantastic idea. Most other foods/meals I can get for takeout or we can have once we can take baby girl out with us. But, picking crabs is a messy business and basically only a summertime one. Picking up a newborn to feed her would be out of the question. So it was a great time!
Sunday morning we got up early and headed off to a surprise get together for our friend's 30th. Had it not been about 100 degrees (literally) and an outdoor event, it would've been a perfect setting. It was on the water on a barge and the view was amazing. But the heat got to me fairly quickly and we had to leave.
After that, we came home and relaxed in the A/C. Our cousins from New England were sightseeing in Baltimore for the weekend so they stopped by just to say hi. We took a little walk up the street with their two kids and got ice (which you know I just happen to love). Then they got on the road for their 7 hour ride home. Glad we got to see them.
Then, it was a huge nap for me while Ian relaxed and played video games. We finished off the weekend with some food cooked out on the grill.
So happy that the storms yesterday cooled things off here. Now, I'm off to take a walk with Tessa. And then I'll be hanging out, waiting around for this little girl to be finished brewing.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Practice Labor
Around 4pm yesterday, I realized I was having some real contractions. I was also really tired, so I decided to lay down for a nap. I had trouble taking a nap because of said contractions. Finally at about 5:15, I realized that these were much more intense than I'd experienced before.
I sat up and started doing some stuff and after another 45 minutes or so, thought "I think this is it!" I didn't call Ian quite yet, not wanting to jinx things. Instead, I hurried around the house doing some things and timed a few of the contractions just to see where I was at. Most were 7-8 minutes apart, and lasting about 45-60 seconds.
Ian came home and things continued. We went for a walk with Tessa, and a couple times we had to stop while I had a contraction. I ate something little for dinner, and things continued. Finally, at around 9 I took a bath and decided to try to get some sleep. If this was the real deal, I wanted to sleep while I could and knew that if it was the real deal, that contractions would become uncomfortable enough to wake me.
Well, I went to sleep and did wake up to a few contractions. But overall I was able to sleep. This morning, I'm still having them, but they aren't quite as intense.
I spoke with my doula last night before bed and she reminded me that if it's the real deal, the contractions will intensify over time. So I guess this isn't it.
Ian's at work while I'm home (pouting). I was getting excited to meet this little one. But apparently it's not quite time yet!
I sat up and started doing some stuff and after another 45 minutes or so, thought "I think this is it!" I didn't call Ian quite yet, not wanting to jinx things. Instead, I hurried around the house doing some things and timed a few of the contractions just to see where I was at. Most were 7-8 minutes apart, and lasting about 45-60 seconds.
Ian came home and things continued. We went for a walk with Tessa, and a couple times we had to stop while I had a contraction. I ate something little for dinner, and things continued. Finally, at around 9 I took a bath and decided to try to get some sleep. If this was the real deal, I wanted to sleep while I could and knew that if it was the real deal, that contractions would become uncomfortable enough to wake me.
Well, I went to sleep and did wake up to a few contractions. But overall I was able to sleep. This morning, I'm still having them, but they aren't quite as intense.
I spoke with my doula last night before bed and she reminded me that if it's the real deal, the contractions will intensify over time. So I guess this isn't it.
Ian's at work while I'm home (pouting). I was getting excited to meet this little one. But apparently it's not quite time yet!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Getting Over Birthing Fears
When I first got pregnant (and even before I was pregnant), I would see a pregnant woman late in her pregnancy and feel scared for her. Scared about what she was going to have to endure to get that baby here.
Women have all sorts of fears (and husbands/partners have their own set about watching their lady go through labor). Pain. The Unkown. Something going wrong. Feeling out of control. Getting an episiotome. Tearing. Pain. Hospitals. Did I mention pains? We all have different ways of working through these fears. If your main fear is the pain, you may opt to go with pain medicine or an epidural. If it's the unknown of what happens, you may continue avoidance because the knowing may make you more fearful, or you may become very well educated on the process of giving birth. If it's that something could go wrong, you may prepare plans about the worst case scenario. If it's the hospital, you may choose to give birth in a birthing center, or at home.
For me, I had a few fews that were overwhelming. I was afraid of the unknown, and of feeling out of control. I educated myself by reading about others birth stories, reading books, reading articles, asking others about their experiences, and even watching some documentaries. This helped me feel more in control because at least I'd be able to have a conversation about the risks with my practioner. It also made things a little less unknown. And finally, it helped me prepare in case things don't go according to plan. If something does go wrong, I have a plan set up for that too. If something does go wrong, I am with practioners who I trust completely to consult with me because they know this is about me and my baby.
I read an article on birthing preferences recently and loved this section of it: "The right way is the way that leaves the mother feeling at peace with the birth. If she’s at peace with her elective cesarean or her epidural or her water birth, that is the right way. If she’s left feeling disempowered, scared, unsure, this is the wrong way."
We all have different personalities, fears, wishes, hopes. It's sad to me that some women are judged for opting for an elective c-section, or on the other side, for wanting to go completely naturally at a water birth at home. We all are different and each woman deserves the respect that she's making a great decision for herself based on her wants and fears.
And finally, a humorous (but legitimate) fear I had was that women sometimes poop during labor. I was so worried about this! I don't want my hubby or midwives or nurses or our doula seeing me poop as I'm pushing our baby out! So I talked about this fear. With hubby, with our doula, with friends, with women who have had babies before. And it turns out - pooping during pushing is pretty normal. I've been reassured that if I'm pushing correctly, that I likely will poop (oh joy). I've also been reassured that in that moment, when I am giving life to our daughter, that I won't care if I poop because I will be so focused on bringing her into the world. Ian is a huge fan of potty jokes and talk. So I was worried that after our daughter is born and she's on my chest and we're soaking her in, that Ian would whisper, giggling, "you pooped!" He has assured me he will NOT utter those words. I'm sure days or weeks after she's here, that (if I did in fact poop during labor) we'll be able to laugh about it. But until then, I'm going to be in complete denial as to whether it happens, and if it does happen, continue denying that it did. A girl's gotta do what she needs to to get over those fears. Denial - complete denial works for me!
Women have all sorts of fears (and husbands/partners have their own set about watching their lady go through labor). Pain. The Unkown. Something going wrong. Feeling out of control. Getting an episiotome. Tearing. Pain. Hospitals. Did I mention pains? We all have different ways of working through these fears. If your main fear is the pain, you may opt to go with pain medicine or an epidural. If it's the unknown of what happens, you may continue avoidance because the knowing may make you more fearful, or you may become very well educated on the process of giving birth. If it's that something could go wrong, you may prepare plans about the worst case scenario. If it's the hospital, you may choose to give birth in a birthing center, or at home.
For me, I had a few fews that were overwhelming. I was afraid of the unknown, and of feeling out of control. I educated myself by reading about others birth stories, reading books, reading articles, asking others about their experiences, and even watching some documentaries. This helped me feel more in control because at least I'd be able to have a conversation about the risks with my practioner. It also made things a little less unknown. And finally, it helped me prepare in case things don't go according to plan. If something does go wrong, I have a plan set up for that too. If something does go wrong, I am with practioners who I trust completely to consult with me because they know this is about me and my baby.
I read an article on birthing preferences recently and loved this section of it: "The right way is the way that leaves the mother feeling at peace with the birth. If she’s at peace with her elective cesarean or her epidural or her water birth, that is the right way. If she’s left feeling disempowered, scared, unsure, this is the wrong way."
We all have different personalities, fears, wishes, hopes. It's sad to me that some women are judged for opting for an elective c-section, or on the other side, for wanting to go completely naturally at a water birth at home. We all are different and each woman deserves the respect that she's making a great decision for herself based on her wants and fears.
And finally, a humorous (but legitimate) fear I had was that women sometimes poop during labor. I was so worried about this! I don't want my hubby or midwives or nurses or our doula seeing me poop as I'm pushing our baby out! So I talked about this fear. With hubby, with our doula, with friends, with women who have had babies before. And it turns out - pooping during pushing is pretty normal. I've been reassured that if I'm pushing correctly, that I likely will poop (oh joy). I've also been reassured that in that moment, when I am giving life to our daughter, that I won't care if I poop because I will be so focused on bringing her into the world. Ian is a huge fan of potty jokes and talk. So I was worried that after our daughter is born and she's on my chest and we're soaking her in, that Ian would whisper, giggling, "you pooped!" He has assured me he will NOT utter those words. I'm sure days or weeks after she's here, that (if I did in fact poop during labor) we'll be able to laugh about it. But until then, I'm going to be in complete denial as to whether it happens, and if it does happen, continue denying that it did. A girl's gotta do what she needs to to get over those fears. Denial - complete denial works for me!
So this is the annoying part
I think next pregnancy, I will tell my friends and family that my due date is 2 weeks later than it actually is. I have decided that it's not the waiting part that's bad, it's the amount of times I'm asked "any news yet" or "are you in labor yet", or "have you had the baby yet" that is out of control. It started about a week before my due date. People emailing, texting, calling, just to "check in."
By my due date, it was already getting annoying. And now, I'm irritated every time my phone beeps with a new text message. I'm relieved if I see someone isn't asking me those questions.
But the thing that amuses me is that these people asking are my family and friends. Don't they know that I have a plan in place to inform them all when I do have this baby? Do my close family and friends really think they'll be out of the loop?
Or if I don't get to my phone in time and it goes to voicemail, people are automatically thinking I'm in labor and at the hospital. People need to calm down. No wonder us soon-to-be-mamas get anxious at the end. Of course, we're all excited to meet our little ones, but we're more excited to not hear those questions anymore!
Note to people out there - if you're friends with a pregnant lady, don't pester her with questions at the end. EDITED TO ADD: I think sending a message saying "thinking of you over the next few days" is totally appropriate. It's just the actual questions of "how do you feel? do you feel like it'll happen today? have you had the baby yet?" that get a bit overwhelming.
And to not end this on a sour note, I want to say that I know my family and friends are asking us because they are so excited for us! Their enthusiasm to meet this little one is overwhelming, and I love it. We are blessed to have so many people who actually CARE! I just wish they'd stop making me a crazy person with their enthusiasm :)
By my due date, it was already getting annoying. And now, I'm irritated every time my phone beeps with a new text message. I'm relieved if I see someone isn't asking me those questions.
But the thing that amuses me is that these people asking are my family and friends. Don't they know that I have a plan in place to inform them all when I do have this baby? Do my close family and friends really think they'll be out of the loop?
Or if I don't get to my phone in time and it goes to voicemail, people are automatically thinking I'm in labor and at the hospital. People need to calm down. No wonder us soon-to-be-mamas get anxious at the end. Of course, we're all excited to meet our little ones, but we're more excited to not hear those questions anymore!
Note to people out there - if you're friends with a pregnant lady, don't pester her with questions at the end. EDITED TO ADD: I think sending a message saying "thinking of you over the next few days" is totally appropriate. It's just the actual questions of "how do you feel? do you feel like it'll happen today? have you had the baby yet?" that get a bit overwhelming.
And to not end this on a sour note, I want to say that I know my family and friends are asking us because they are so excited for us! Their enthusiasm to meet this little one is overwhelming, and I love it. We are blessed to have so many people who actually CARE! I just wish they'd stop making me a crazy person with their enthusiasm :)
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
40 Week Check-up
Nothing crazy to report. Blood pressure, weight gain, and baby's heartrate are all good. They don't even start talking about induction unless there's a medical reason to. They did do a cervical check, which is the first one I've had done since I was 36 weeks. At 36 weeks, I was closed and 50% effaced. Now I am 1.5-2 cm dilated and 50% effaced. At least my body has progressed at all! Getting checked today made me so happy that I hadn't been getting checked weekly.
Next appointment, if baby is still in my belly, is a week from today. At that point they'll probably order a non-stress test. For those who don't know what that is - I'll be sent to labor and delivery and hooked up to a fetal monitor for about 20 minutes to just monitor baby's heartrate and movements. If all goes well with that, then they let me go to 42 weeks. If baby is still in there, then we likely will have to induce.
Hoping I never even get to next week's appointment!
Next appointment, if baby is still in my belly, is a week from today. At that point they'll probably order a non-stress test. For those who don't know what that is - I'll be sent to labor and delivery and hooked up to a fetal monitor for about 20 minutes to just monitor baby's heartrate and movements. If all goes well with that, then they let me go to 42 weeks. If baby is still in there, then we likely will have to induce.
Hoping I never even get to next week's appointment!
On Not Sharing the Name
I just wanted to address the question of baby girl's name. Ian and I have thought long and hard about it, and we've decided not to share her name on my blog. We have a nickname we'll use strictly for the blog. So if you're friends with me on facebook, we'll share her name there, but please respect our wish to keep it off the blog and do not post her name in any comments! Same goes for twitter - we won't be sharing it there.
And if you're really interested and want to know her name, feel free to email me directly (after she arrives - we're not sharing it until then). I'll likely share it with you if we're bloggy friends!
Now, I'm off to a check-up with my midwife. Will update you later although I don't think I'll have anything new to report.
And if you're really interested and want to know her name, feel free to email me directly (after she arrives - we're not sharing it until then). I'll likely share it with you if we're bloggy friends!
Now, I'm off to a check-up with my midwife. Will update you later although I don't think I'll have anything new to report.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I broke down and finally created a twitter account. Maybe this way I won't get more phone calls/texts/emails asking if this baby has popped yet.
Feel free to follow me!
Feel free to follow me!
Twitter name?
I'm thinking of signing up for Twitter to be able to connect with other moms and Baltimore peeps, and bloggers!
I'm stuck on a name that may work. Any ideas?
I'm stuck on a name that may work. Any ideas?
40 Weeks
Today, I am 40 weeks pregnant. Holy moly. I'm huge, have been told I waddle, pee every 2 hours (that's the maximum amount of time I can go), and need a crane to get out of bed.
But you know what? I have really liked being pregnant. Sure there are some annoying things about pregnancy - but seriously, my body just grew a baby. I have a full-grown baby just hanging out in my belly, that I'm about to give birth to. How freaking amazing is that?!
This pregnancy has taught me to trust my body. To have faith in it. And, it's taught me to trust my natural instincts. One of my close friends said this weekend, that pregnancy really does remind us how primal a process it is. I completely agree. If you take a step away from all the medical mumbo jumbo, and focus on how much the body is accomplishing, it truly is amazing.
Baby girl was guestimated to be about 7 pounds a few weeks ago, so I imagine she's closer to 8 pounds by now. Although, I wouldn't be surprised if she's about as big as I was when I was born (7 lbs 4 ounces I think).
Ian and I had a little chat with her last night. As much as I want her to be here already, we don't want to push things to happen before they're supposed to. As you know, I'm going for a natural, unmedicated birth, so it seems to go with that goal that I feel things will happen when they're supposed to. Maybe first time mamas tend to go late because our bodies need more time to prepare for the birth. So we talked to our little one - we told her we can't wait to meet her. We told her we love her. We told her how amazing it is going to be to lock eyes with her for the first time. We told her to listen for our voices, because we'll be talking to her throughout the birth and once she's out. We told her we're ready for her to be here, no matter when or how she gets here.
I have had mild contractions since last night - but nothing that kept me awake. Still just hanging out!
But you know what? I have really liked being pregnant. Sure there are some annoying things about pregnancy - but seriously, my body just grew a baby. I have a full-grown baby just hanging out in my belly, that I'm about to give birth to. How freaking amazing is that?!
This pregnancy has taught me to trust my body. To have faith in it. And, it's taught me to trust my natural instincts. One of my close friends said this weekend, that pregnancy really does remind us how primal a process it is. I completely agree. If you take a step away from all the medical mumbo jumbo, and focus on how much the body is accomplishing, it truly is amazing.
Baby girl was guestimated to be about 7 pounds a few weeks ago, so I imagine she's closer to 8 pounds by now. Although, I wouldn't be surprised if she's about as big as I was when I was born (7 lbs 4 ounces I think).
Ian and I had a little chat with her last night. As much as I want her to be here already, we don't want to push things to happen before they're supposed to. As you know, I'm going for a natural, unmedicated birth, so it seems to go with that goal that I feel things will happen when they're supposed to. Maybe first time mamas tend to go late because our bodies need more time to prepare for the birth. So we talked to our little one - we told her we can't wait to meet her. We told her we love her. We told her how amazing it is going to be to lock eyes with her for the first time. We told her to listen for our voices, because we'll be talking to her throughout the birth and once she's out. We told her we're ready for her to be here, no matter when or how she gets here.
I have had mild contractions since last night - but nothing that kept me awake. Still just hanging out!
Monday, July 19, 2010
Like her mama or dad?
I hate being late. I had hoped baby girl might have a similar personality. But I'm thinking she might just be more like her Dad and take her sweet, precious time. If I give Ian a deadline, I inevitably need to fib and tell him a deadline a few days/hours/minutes before the real deadline because he is ALWAYS late.
Maybe I should've employed this same tactic with baby girl.
I have been approaching her due date with caution, skepticism really. I've seen and heard of way too many women who pass their due dates with disappointment, desperation, and irritation. I was/am determined not to fall into that trap. I have had it in my head that no matter when she comes, she is coming so soon, so I cannot be disappointed. And I also am fully aware that first time mamas normally pass their due dates - by an average of 10 days. Personally, I think the due date given should be the maximum amount of time the doctor will let mom go. That way, we don't get these crazy due dates in our heads that we envision as deadlines. Truly, the due dates given are averages of the range - so anywhere from 37-42 weeks is when baby will be ready. And it just depends on mom's body and baby's readiness as to when he/she will come during that time period.
The only concern I have for her coming 2 weeks late (which is the latest I will be allowed to go), is that it means less time home before I go back to school. I don't have a guaranteed 5 weeks maternity leave. It's all based on when she comes. I only have the time from when I deliver, until when school officially starts. People have asked if I can miss the first two weeks of school. The nature of law school is such that you really cannot miss classes - even for medical reasons. If I were to request excused absences for more than a couple days, my school would likely suggest that I take the semester off, which is something I cannot do.
Am I desperate for her to be out? No. But I am desperate to have as much time home with her as possible. I am desperate to have enough time to recover from delivering. I am desperate to have enough time to get adjusted to breastfeeding.
Trying to let go and just relax. Reminding myself that she will come when the time is right. Hoping for a delivery sooner rather than later, but know that she'll be here within the next 2 weeks. I cannot wait to meet eyes with this little one!
Maybe I should've employed this same tactic with baby girl.
I have been approaching her due date with caution, skepticism really. I've seen and heard of way too many women who pass their due dates with disappointment, desperation, and irritation. I was/am determined not to fall into that trap. I have had it in my head that no matter when she comes, she is coming so soon, so I cannot be disappointed. And I also am fully aware that first time mamas normally pass their due dates - by an average of 10 days. Personally, I think the due date given should be the maximum amount of time the doctor will let mom go. That way, we don't get these crazy due dates in our heads that we envision as deadlines. Truly, the due dates given are averages of the range - so anywhere from 37-42 weeks is when baby will be ready. And it just depends on mom's body and baby's readiness as to when he/she will come during that time period.
The only concern I have for her coming 2 weeks late (which is the latest I will be allowed to go), is that it means less time home before I go back to school. I don't have a guaranteed 5 weeks maternity leave. It's all based on when she comes. I only have the time from when I deliver, until when school officially starts. People have asked if I can miss the first two weeks of school. The nature of law school is such that you really cannot miss classes - even for medical reasons. If I were to request excused absences for more than a couple days, my school would likely suggest that I take the semester off, which is something I cannot do.
Am I desperate for her to be out? No. But I am desperate to have as much time home with her as possible. I am desperate to have enough time to recover from delivering. I am desperate to have enough time to get adjusted to breastfeeding.
Trying to let go and just relax. Reminding myself that she will come when the time is right. Hoping for a delivery sooner rather than later, but know that she'll be here within the next 2 weeks. I cannot wait to meet eyes with this little one!
Question of the Day
Sjmonk5 asked: so my question for you...Are you worried about handling school once the baby comes and do you think your career goals might change after she is born? (i.e. would you worry about the hours a lawyer would have to work, etc.)
Great question - and this is a topic that is constantly on my mind,. I have to say that out of all the worries I have, this is my biggest concern. Law school is such a different world than any other schooling I've been through. It is not a very family friendly atmosphere and even being married is difficult while in law school. When I first found out I was pregnant, since we had not been planning to start our family quite so soon, I remember panicking about what I was going to do about school. Sadly, my school has not been helpful in preparing me for the transition back to school.
I head back to school just 5 weeks after my due date. This short amount of time stresses me out, especially since solely breastfeeding our baby is so incredibly important to me. Everyone suggested I take a semester off. But my feeling was that it'll be easier to finish law school before our baby is crawling and walking. I will say that I am a pusher - so I have pushed and pushed to get my way. I have put my mommy boxing gloves on and fought it out with my law school. Law schools have a long way to go in promoting family life. I am pushing my law school to be more supportive of moms and dads who are brave enough to take on law school (and the debt that comes with it) once kids are in their lives.
I believe that I can finish law school on time, and do well. I've worked out 3 different plans depending on how things go with our birth, and how things are going with baby girl when it's time for me to head back to school. At the end of the day, my biggest responsibility is being a good mom and meeting our daughter's needs. And I will push for that no matter what, while equally trying to juggle law school. And let's not forget about trying to maintain a healthy marriage - that is right up there with my responsibility to our daughter.
Being pregnant has also made me rethink priorities. Our baby comes first, but having her has also made me realize what type of role model I want to be for our daughter. I want to be an amazingly devoted mom, but also very successful in my career. Is it even possible to accomplish both? I think so!
I originally was thinking that corporate law or family law might be the areas I'd like to go into. But as soon as I found out I was pregnant, my interests for careers shifted quite a bit. After talking with lawyers in each of these areas, I realize that a good worklife balance may not be quite feasible in these two areas. I am now looking into areas that might provide better balance for being a mom, wife, and lawyer. Hopefully, it'll all fall into place!
At the end of the day, my advice to someone who may be venturing down a similar adventurous path is to expect that there will be hurdles, major challenges even. But at the end of the day, if you have a ton of motivation to make it work, and are willing to do the legwork to make it work, then you can do it! And at the end of it when I'm graduating in May and my daughter is in the audience witnessing that, even though she won't remember that, I think it's so cool that she gets to witness her mama accomplish something so difficult.
Great question - and this is a topic that is constantly on my mind,. I have to say that out of all the worries I have, this is my biggest concern. Law school is such a different world than any other schooling I've been through. It is not a very family friendly atmosphere and even being married is difficult while in law school. When I first found out I was pregnant, since we had not been planning to start our family quite so soon, I remember panicking about what I was going to do about school. Sadly, my school has not been helpful in preparing me for the transition back to school.
I head back to school just 5 weeks after my due date. This short amount of time stresses me out, especially since solely breastfeeding our baby is so incredibly important to me. Everyone suggested I take a semester off. But my feeling was that it'll be easier to finish law school before our baby is crawling and walking. I will say that I am a pusher - so I have pushed and pushed to get my way. I have put my mommy boxing gloves on and fought it out with my law school. Law schools have a long way to go in promoting family life. I am pushing my law school to be more supportive of moms and dads who are brave enough to take on law school (and the debt that comes with it) once kids are in their lives.
I believe that I can finish law school on time, and do well. I've worked out 3 different plans depending on how things go with our birth, and how things are going with baby girl when it's time for me to head back to school. At the end of the day, my biggest responsibility is being a good mom and meeting our daughter's needs. And I will push for that no matter what, while equally trying to juggle law school. And let's not forget about trying to maintain a healthy marriage - that is right up there with my responsibility to our daughter.
Being pregnant has also made me rethink priorities. Our baby comes first, but having her has also made me realize what type of role model I want to be for our daughter. I want to be an amazingly devoted mom, but also very successful in my career. Is it even possible to accomplish both? I think so!
I originally was thinking that corporate law or family law might be the areas I'd like to go into. But as soon as I found out I was pregnant, my interests for careers shifted quite a bit. After talking with lawyers in each of these areas, I realize that a good worklife balance may not be quite feasible in these two areas. I am now looking into areas that might provide better balance for being a mom, wife, and lawyer. Hopefully, it'll all fall into place!
At the end of the day, my advice to someone who may be venturing down a similar adventurous path is to expect that there will be hurdles, major challenges even. But at the end of the day, if you have a ton of motivation to make it work, and are willing to do the legwork to make it work, then you can do it! And at the end of it when I'm graduating in May and my daughter is in the audience witnessing that, even though she won't remember that, I think it's so cool that she gets to witness her mama accomplish something so difficult.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
A Taste of Labor
I woke up several times last night to pee - but something felt different. Finally at 5:00, I realized that I was indeed having some real contractions. They were intense enough that I could not fall back to sleep. I finally woke Ian at 5:40. I stayed up for another couple hours while Ian slept. I slept in between contractions. It was certainly a taste of labor. But they eventually lost intensity and I was able to fall completely back to sleep.
Just another sign that my body is doing what it should be - getting ready! I was filled with excitement at the thought of this time being "it."
Just another sign that my body is doing what it should be - getting ready! I was filled with excitement at the thought of this time being "it."
Friday, July 16, 2010
Until Baby Comes
Until she comes...I'm opening up my email to you to ask any questions you want to. It can be about the pregnancy, the baby, our life, anything. I'll do my best to answer as honestly as possible.
Frommagerkstoidos@gmail.com
*I realize this could totally backfire and nobody could have any questions for me. But oh well - I figure I will try to pass the time as best I can so please ask me anything!
Frommagerkstoidos@gmail.com
*I realize this could totally backfire and nobody could have any questions for me. But oh well - I figure I will try to pass the time as best I can so please ask me anything!
It's a good thing I've become a light sleeper
Peeing every 2 hours through the night is somewhat annoying, but I feel pretty used to it now. And besides, I figure the constant interruptions are just preparing me for the interruptions we'll have once baby girl is in the outside world (although I'm sure my pee breaks are just a taste of the amount of interruptions we'll have when she's born).
When I wake up for these breaks, I hoist myself out of the bed, sleepily grab random things on my nightstand until I feel my glasses, put my glasses on, then very loudly walk down the hall to our bathroom. Then I come back to bed, rearrange my pillows by lifting the covers, then I plop back into bed, put my glasses back on the nightstand, and quickly try to find a comfortable position so I can fall back to sleep. Through all of that, Ian does not even stir. Not even a little twitch.
Last night, after I came back from my 4:30am pee break, I was half asleep but bolted awake a few minutes after 5. I braced the bed because I could've sworn the entire room was shaking. Actually what truly startled me wasn't the shaking, it was the noise from my jewelry cabinet shaking, and our TV stand was shaking against the wall. Then it stopped. I thought I must've been having a dream, because it sure as hell felt what I imagine an earthquake would feel like. But it couldn't be. We live in Maryland for goodness sakes. So I laid there, pondering what could've woken me. Was I dreaming? Did our next door neighbor fall down the steps? I kept waiting to hear an ambulance pull up outside, or police, or something. But nothing.
And what a surprise - Ian slept soundly through the entire thing. There I am, laying wide awake wondering what the hell just happened, and my darling husband slept through it all. Turns out, it was a (small) earthquake. So I wasn't dreaming afterall.
But it makes me a little nervous that Ian's sleep pattern is not the most conducive for being a supportive Dad/husband when baby girl arrives. Our plan is that when baby girl wakes up the first week, Ian gets up and brings her to me to feed. Then when I'm finished feeding her, he takes her for a diaper change and burping, then puts her back to sleep. (And by the way...I realize that process sounds way too easy than it will probably be. I'm sure that plan will go straight out the window depending on what our little one needs from us). But is he even going to wake up when she cries? Is his sleep pattern something that will change once she's here, or am I constantly going to need to wake him up each time?
What was your husband's sleep pattern before and after the baby arrived? Did he too turn into a light sleeper?
When I wake up for these breaks, I hoist myself out of the bed, sleepily grab random things on my nightstand until I feel my glasses, put my glasses on, then very loudly walk down the hall to our bathroom. Then I come back to bed, rearrange my pillows by lifting the covers, then I plop back into bed, put my glasses back on the nightstand, and quickly try to find a comfortable position so I can fall back to sleep. Through all of that, Ian does not even stir. Not even a little twitch.
Last night, after I came back from my 4:30am pee break, I was half asleep but bolted awake a few minutes after 5. I braced the bed because I could've sworn the entire room was shaking. Actually what truly startled me wasn't the shaking, it was the noise from my jewelry cabinet shaking, and our TV stand was shaking against the wall. Then it stopped. I thought I must've been having a dream, because it sure as hell felt what I imagine an earthquake would feel like. But it couldn't be. We live in Maryland for goodness sakes. So I laid there, pondering what could've woken me. Was I dreaming? Did our next door neighbor fall down the steps? I kept waiting to hear an ambulance pull up outside, or police, or something. But nothing.
And what a surprise - Ian slept soundly through the entire thing. There I am, laying wide awake wondering what the hell just happened, and my darling husband slept through it all. Turns out, it was a (small) earthquake. So I wasn't dreaming afterall.
But it makes me a little nervous that Ian's sleep pattern is not the most conducive for being a supportive Dad/husband when baby girl arrives. Our plan is that when baby girl wakes up the first week, Ian gets up and brings her to me to feed. Then when I'm finished feeding her, he takes her for a diaper change and burping, then puts her back to sleep. (And by the way...I realize that process sounds way too easy than it will probably be. I'm sure that plan will go straight out the window depending on what our little one needs from us). But is he even going to wake up when she cries? Is his sleep pattern something that will change once she's here, or am I constantly going to need to wake him up each time?
What was your husband's sleep pattern before and after the baby arrived? Did he too turn into a light sleeper?
Thursday, July 15, 2010
A Debatable Topic and a Weekly Check Up
Being married to someone from Europe means that there are cultural differences. For example, throughout this pregnancy, I have really been a stickler about not drinking, much to Ian's and his family's surprise. It's certainly more accepted in Europe to continue having a little wine here and there throughout pregnancy.
Once I found out I was pregnant, I pretty much cut it out of my system. Once I got to the 3rd trimester, if Ian was drinking wine and he said it was an especially great glass, I'd occasionally take a mini sip just to sample it. More recently, I've allowed myself to have a 1/2 glass every few weeks. The first time I did this was at our 2nd wedding anniversary dinner. I drank 1/2 glass of delicious wine over the span of 2 hours. Last night, I had about 1/2 glass throughout dinner and my bath afterwards (over about 3 hours). It got me to thinking, that some women would probably be judging me if they saw me doing that. Some people are shocked that I would have any, even a sip. My feeling is that a little bit here and there, especially this late in pregnancy, and with how little I drink over a several hour time span is okay. I'm not doing it everyday, or even on a weekly basis. My birthing instructor even suggested to have a glass of wine towards the end of pregnancy to help the body relax a little bit.
EDITED TO ADD: As a sidenote, I cut out just about everything else that wasn't "safe" for pregnancy. No deli meats, no unpasteurized cheeses, no caffeine (well probably a little bit in my decaf coffee I occasionally have), and really avoided even the occasional tylenol. This post really only relates to my alcohol intake.
What are your thoughts on the subject? Have you found yourself to be the strict, none whatsoever type, or have you had a sip here and there?
I had a weekly check-up today and everything is going smoothly. Blood pressure, weight, and baby's heart rate are all great. Baby girl's head is down, facing down, and the rest of her body is sideways (which is just about how it should be). Once again, I opted not to have a cervical check. It makes the waiting game a little more bearable for me to not know exactly how much progress I have made. I'm practicing patience, and just trying to relax and let things happen on their own without much stress on my part. I love that we will get to meet our little one anyday - I can't wait to meet eyes with her!
Once I found out I was pregnant, I pretty much cut it out of my system. Once I got to the 3rd trimester, if Ian was drinking wine and he said it was an especially great glass, I'd occasionally take a mini sip just to sample it. More recently, I've allowed myself to have a 1/2 glass every few weeks. The first time I did this was at our 2nd wedding anniversary dinner. I drank 1/2 glass of delicious wine over the span of 2 hours. Last night, I had about 1/2 glass throughout dinner and my bath afterwards (over about 3 hours). It got me to thinking, that some women would probably be judging me if they saw me doing that. Some people are shocked that I would have any, even a sip. My feeling is that a little bit here and there, especially this late in pregnancy, and with how little I drink over a several hour time span is okay. I'm not doing it everyday, or even on a weekly basis. My birthing instructor even suggested to have a glass of wine towards the end of pregnancy to help the body relax a little bit.
EDITED TO ADD: As a sidenote, I cut out just about everything else that wasn't "safe" for pregnancy. No deli meats, no unpasteurized cheeses, no caffeine (well probably a little bit in my decaf coffee I occasionally have), and really avoided even the occasional tylenol. This post really only relates to my alcohol intake.
What are your thoughts on the subject? Have you found yourself to be the strict, none whatsoever type, or have you had a sip here and there?
I had a weekly check-up today and everything is going smoothly. Blood pressure, weight, and baby's heart rate are all great. Baby girl's head is down, facing down, and the rest of her body is sideways (which is just about how it should be). Once again, I opted not to have a cervical check. It makes the waiting game a little more bearable for me to not know exactly how much progress I have made. I'm practicing patience, and just trying to relax and let things happen on their own without much stress on my part. I love that we will get to meet our little one anyday - I can't wait to meet eyes with her!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Ways to Induce Labor Naturally
You know I've been doing the Evening Primrose Oil. I've also occasionally been drinking red raspberry leaf tea (which much to my surprise, does not taste like raspberry).
Any chance I get, I've been eating some things that have some spice. Over the weekend I had indian food. Last night, I was really craving meat. We headed to Chaps - a hole in the wall pit beef place. I put a ton of their tiger sauce (horseradish and something else) on my sandwich. It was delicious - and while I did have a huge increase in braxton hicks, and even a few real contractions, I'm not in labor.
Today, I had a follow-up chiropractic appointment. He put me in a chair I hadn't been in before. Apparently he has to wait until women are close to their due dates to put them in this particular massage chair because it can put pressure on trigger points that may induce labor. Hook me up! I sat in that marvelous chair for 20 minutes - it was heavenly, massaging my back in the most perfect spots.
Everyone says sex does it. I won't really go there on this blog...but I'll just say that we're not ruling out any natural methods of getting this baby out of me.
Quite honestly, I think baby comes when she and my body are ready. I will no resort to castor oil - just seems to gross to me. She'll come when she's ready. I just hope that's soon. I may try some accupuncture - I've heard good things about it for inducing labor. In the meantime, I'll continue eating and doing what I can to make sure my body is ready!
Any chance I get, I've been eating some things that have some spice. Over the weekend I had indian food. Last night, I was really craving meat. We headed to Chaps - a hole in the wall pit beef place. I put a ton of their tiger sauce (horseradish and something else) on my sandwich. It was delicious - and while I did have a huge increase in braxton hicks, and even a few real contractions, I'm not in labor.
Today, I had a follow-up chiropractic appointment. He put me in a chair I hadn't been in before. Apparently he has to wait until women are close to their due dates to put them in this particular massage chair because it can put pressure on trigger points that may induce labor. Hook me up! I sat in that marvelous chair for 20 minutes - it was heavenly, massaging my back in the most perfect spots.
Everyone says sex does it. I won't really go there on this blog...but I'll just say that we're not ruling out any natural methods of getting this baby out of me.
Quite honestly, I think baby comes when she and my body are ready. I will no resort to castor oil - just seems to gross to me. She'll come when she's ready. I just hope that's soon. I may try some accupuncture - I've heard good things about it for inducing labor. In the meantime, I'll continue eating and doing what I can to make sure my body is ready!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
39 Weeks
I feel like these weekly check-ins are no longer that exciting. Let's face it, baby is pretty much finished her growth in there, and we're super excited for the much bigger event that should be happening in the next couple weeks. Her brain is still growing, as it will continue to do after she arrives.
I feel ready. At church on Sunday, I kept fidgeting because I could NOT get comfortable. My type A personality does not do well with not knowing when this baby will come out. I don't mind if she's late - if only I could just KNOW it. But clearly, life and pregnancy don't really work that way. So be it :)
I'm sleeping fairly well considering how large I am. I'm waking up to pee about 4-5 times per night, but can normally fall back to sleep immediately afterwards. I'm also taking advantage of not having much to do and I'm napping almost everyday. Me likey my naps.
I really have just been spending my time relaxing. I went and saw Eclipse yesterday. I loved the Twilight books so I inevitably am excited to see the movies when they come out. I think out of the 3 movies so far, the 2nd one was done the best. This one was good but only because I really like the story line. It was probably a good thing that Ian missed this one.
On today's agenda, I'm finishing some thank you notes and watching some netflix movies. Anyday now!
I feel ready. At church on Sunday, I kept fidgeting because I could NOT get comfortable. My type A personality does not do well with not knowing when this baby will come out. I don't mind if she's late - if only I could just KNOW it. But clearly, life and pregnancy don't really work that way. So be it :)
I'm sleeping fairly well considering how large I am. I'm waking up to pee about 4-5 times per night, but can normally fall back to sleep immediately afterwards. I'm also taking advantage of not having much to do and I'm napping almost everyday. Me likey my naps.
I really have just been spending my time relaxing. I went and saw Eclipse yesterday. I loved the Twilight books so I inevitably am excited to see the movies when they come out. I think out of the 3 movies so far, the 2nd one was done the best. This one was good but only because I really like the story line. It was probably a good thing that Ian missed this one.
On today's agenda, I'm finishing some thank you notes and watching some netflix movies. Anyday now!
Monday, July 12, 2010
38 Week Checkup and the Weekend
I was relaxing and catching up with one of my close friends all day on Friday so I didn't get around to posting. My friend actually went with me to my 38 week checkup!
Checkup was great - blood pressure, weight gain, and baby's heart rate were all great. I've now met with each of the 5 midwives...and I love every one of them. I am so thrilled with our choice in providers! Baby girl's heart rate accelerated while we were listening to it. Our midwife says that basically our girl just gave us what a non-stress test would do. After our midwife poked around and felt to make sure baby is still in a good position, she listened to her heart beat and lovey began moving like a maniac, and her heart did what it was supposed to do when she moves - it sped up.
For some reason, yesterday officially began the day that everyone starts calling/texting/emailing to check in. People are now starting to ask "is she here yet"? I just respond that they will know when she arrives because we have an email list already ready to go for when that day comes. Other questions - when do I feel like I'll go into labor. Quite honestly - I have no idea. I'm hanging out and continuing to maintain a clean house, and keeping food in the house that will be okay for me to eat while I'm in labor. But as to when I think this baby is coming - I really don't know anymore. I used to think she would come early - but now that everyone has told me they think she's coming early, I've gotten it in my head that she'll be 2 weeks late. At least that way, I won't be disappointed when her due date comes and goes and I still have no baby in my arms.
I have to admit that I will start getting a bit nervous if she's late. But really, the only reason I really am hoping she'll come early or on time is because I want as much time home with her as possible. Going back to school 4-5 weeks after her due date is scary to me. But having even less time to recover and be home with her if she's late is even scarier to me. I want to get breastfeeding down before I head back. And I want that bonding time with her! But really, this is out of my control so I'm trying to let go of it. She will come when she and my body are ready for her to come. Emotionally though, I'm totally ready!
Friday night we went out with friends for Indian food - it was amazing and delicious and a funny dinner overall. I was hoping the indian spices would get labor rolling - but no such luck.
We took a breastfeeding class on Saturday. It was really informative, especially for Ian. I had already read So That's What They're For (thanks for the recommendation, Nanette! And as a sidenote, if you're interested in learning about breastfeeding, I highly recommend that book!), but Ian hadn't read that book. It was great for him to understand why I am so interested in breastfeeding. Obviously, he had heard that there were some benefits for the baby - but it was helpful to hear what the research shows and understand the specifics about the benefits. (NOTE - breastfeeding v. formula is a personal decision! for us, breastfeeding is our hope. Just want to be clear that I'm not judging!).
Finally, yesterday we slept in. It felt amazing. We also went to church and spent the day just the two of us. We watched the final World Cup game, then took a big nap. A lazy Sunday indeed!
Checkup was great - blood pressure, weight gain, and baby's heart rate were all great. I've now met with each of the 5 midwives...and I love every one of them. I am so thrilled with our choice in providers! Baby girl's heart rate accelerated while we were listening to it. Our midwife says that basically our girl just gave us what a non-stress test would do. After our midwife poked around and felt to make sure baby is still in a good position, she listened to her heart beat and lovey began moving like a maniac, and her heart did what it was supposed to do when she moves - it sped up.
For some reason, yesterday officially began the day that everyone starts calling/texting/emailing to check in. People are now starting to ask "is she here yet"? I just respond that they will know when she arrives because we have an email list already ready to go for when that day comes. Other questions - when do I feel like I'll go into labor. Quite honestly - I have no idea. I'm hanging out and continuing to maintain a clean house, and keeping food in the house that will be okay for me to eat while I'm in labor. But as to when I think this baby is coming - I really don't know anymore. I used to think she would come early - but now that everyone has told me they think she's coming early, I've gotten it in my head that she'll be 2 weeks late. At least that way, I won't be disappointed when her due date comes and goes and I still have no baby in my arms.
I have to admit that I will start getting a bit nervous if she's late. But really, the only reason I really am hoping she'll come early or on time is because I want as much time home with her as possible. Going back to school 4-5 weeks after her due date is scary to me. But having even less time to recover and be home with her if she's late is even scarier to me. I want to get breastfeeding down before I head back. And I want that bonding time with her! But really, this is out of my control so I'm trying to let go of it. She will come when she and my body are ready for her to come. Emotionally though, I'm totally ready!
Friday night we went out with friends for Indian food - it was amazing and delicious and a funny dinner overall. I was hoping the indian spices would get labor rolling - but no such luck.
We took a breastfeeding class on Saturday. It was really informative, especially for Ian. I had already read So That's What They're For (thanks for the recommendation, Nanette! And as a sidenote, if you're interested in learning about breastfeeding, I highly recommend that book!), but Ian hadn't read that book. It was great for him to understand why I am so interested in breastfeeding. Obviously, he had heard that there were some benefits for the baby - but it was helpful to hear what the research shows and understand the specifics about the benefits. (NOTE - breastfeeding v. formula is a personal decision! for us, breastfeeding is our hope. Just want to be clear that I'm not judging!).
Finally, yesterday we slept in. It felt amazing. We also went to church and spent the day just the two of us. We watched the final World Cup game, then took a big nap. A lazy Sunday indeed!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Underpants
For some reason, I giggle whenever someone uses the word "underpants." It sounds so old-ladyish to me. But, as Ian would point out, I truly try to say that word as often as I possibly can. And when I hear it or say it, I then have to repeat it three times in a goofy voice. I'm crazy, I know.
I'll take a picture of all the stuff laid out and give you a list of what I'm taking. But in the meantime, I need your input on...you guessed it...underpants.
What is your favorite type of non-thong underwear? You see, I'm a thong kind of girl. Even through this entire pregnancy, I've continued wearing them. But I know that when I'm recovering after delivering our baby girl, that thongs will not work well. Non-pregnant ladies, what is your most favorite brand/style? And ladies who are pregnant, or just delivered, what would you recommend for the recovery period?
I'll take a picture of all the stuff laid out and give you a list of what I'm taking. But in the meantime, I need your input on...you guessed it...underpants.
What is your favorite type of non-thong underwear? You see, I'm a thong kind of girl. Even through this entire pregnancy, I've continued wearing them. But I know that when I'm recovering after delivering our baby girl, that thongs will not work well. Non-pregnant ladies, what is your most favorite brand/style? And ladies who are pregnant, or just delivered, what would you recommend for the recovery period?
Dear Car Gods
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
I need a tan
I never really realize just how pale I am until I see myself in pictures...next to normal skinned people. Like this picture...I love it...but holy moly, I am white as a ghost!
Going to the movies
I am going to the movies by myself today. This is something I haven't done in years (the going by myself part)...and I'm actually looking forward to it. I figure, I won't get the opportunity to do this in a few weeks...and Ian is at work...so why not take advantage of the time I have? And...it's too freaking hot to do anything outside!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Maternity Photos
If you remember, I was debating whether to get maternity photos taken. Well, our very close friends Kim and Jeremy offered to take them for us. We were obviously thrilled - they had taken some engagement photos of us 3 years ago and seeing how much we loved those, we were super excited and took them up on the offer!
I just got a preview...and I have to say, I am SO happy with them! Here are a few from the preview that I'm pretty in love with!
I just got a preview...and I have to say, I am SO happy with them! Here are a few from the preview that I'm pretty in love with!
38 Weeks
I have two posts for today - one is just a weekly update. And the other...is a more fun post with some pictures!
I do not have a ton to update. I'm feeling...tired. Pretty much like first trimester exhaustion, but because of the heat, it seems worse. Being over 100 degrees means I've been avoiding taking a walk everyday, something I had really been enjoying before Baltimore decided to turn into some ridiculously hot place. Instead, I'm enjoying my time in the air conditioning, keeping the house clean and laying on the couch.
I started taking evening primrose oil to get my body ready for delivery, and possibly even get my body laboring sooner rather than later. I also have been drinking some red raspberry leaf tea, another herbal remedy that supposedly helps bring on labor, or at least prepare my body for when I do go into labor.
It wasn't until yesterday, that I finally felt "ready." Mentally, emotionally, physically. Our bags are mostly packed, the house is mostly clean, we have everything we need, and the thought of labor doesn't send me into a panic. Actually, I feel excited, ready, and open to labor starting anytime. As ready as I am, I realize that my baby and body are controlling when she comes. I had a little chat with this little girl and told her that whenever she is ready, we will be here waiting for her. And as much as I hope to go earlier rather than later, I'm not hung up on the idea of being ON TIME. Really, whether we meet her today or in a few weeks, she can't stay in there forever, and even a few weeks away (if I'm late) is still SO CLOSE!
So until she decides to debut, I will enjoy the quiet. I lit some candles and took a long bath last night. I'm taking naps. I'm blogging. I'm spending time with Ian and Tessa and friends as much as I can. I take my time making and eating lunch and dinner. I'm watching TV. I'm just enjoying these moments. It all is about to change in a matter of weeks. Cherishing these moments now, but so looking forward to the changes in the coming weeks.
I do not have a ton to update. I'm feeling...tired. Pretty much like first trimester exhaustion, but because of the heat, it seems worse. Being over 100 degrees means I've been avoiding taking a walk everyday, something I had really been enjoying before Baltimore decided to turn into some ridiculously hot place. Instead, I'm enjoying my time in the air conditioning, keeping the house clean and laying on the couch.
I started taking evening primrose oil to get my body ready for delivery, and possibly even get my body laboring sooner rather than later. I also have been drinking some red raspberry leaf tea, another herbal remedy that supposedly helps bring on labor, or at least prepare my body for when I do go into labor.
It wasn't until yesterday, that I finally felt "ready." Mentally, emotionally, physically. Our bags are mostly packed, the house is mostly clean, we have everything we need, and the thought of labor doesn't send me into a panic. Actually, I feel excited, ready, and open to labor starting anytime. As ready as I am, I realize that my baby and body are controlling when she comes. I had a little chat with this little girl and told her that whenever she is ready, we will be here waiting for her. And as much as I hope to go earlier rather than later, I'm not hung up on the idea of being ON TIME. Really, whether we meet her today or in a few weeks, she can't stay in there forever, and even a few weeks away (if I'm late) is still SO CLOSE!
So until she decides to debut, I will enjoy the quiet. I lit some candles and took a long bath last night. I'm taking naps. I'm blogging. I'm spending time with Ian and Tessa and friends as much as I can. I take my time making and eating lunch and dinner. I'm watching TV. I'm just enjoying these moments. It all is about to change in a matter of weeks. Cherishing these moments now, but so looking forward to the changes in the coming weeks.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Getting Ready
Baby girl has officially dropped. I knew she had started dropping over a week ago - but I woke up yesterday and thought "my belly feels different." I felt where the top of my uterus sat, and sure enough it's super duper low now. And now, I'm peeing even more often. The books say that once baby starts dropping, the average person goes into labor 2-4 weeks later. But obviously, this is different for every person.
So who knows when this little one will greet us. I am so excited though!
We had a great weekend full of being together and being out and about with friends. We also made it to the farmer's market yesterday - something I LOVE doing, but probably won't be able to do once baby girl is here. While there, I noticed I was having real contractions. By the time we got back home, I knew for sure I was having real ones. We decided to hang out for a bit to time them. For the next couple hours, they were about 7-8 minutes apart. Then they fizzled out. I think it just means my body is getting more ready - something I am totally open to! It gave me a chance to practice being relaxed during and in between them.
We also got our car seats installed. Now, I know a lot of people install them by themselves. But we found out about a company that teaches car seat installation for the safest ride for babies and we decided to use this service. If you're in the Baltimore or New York areas, I HIGHLY recommend using The Car Seat Lady. We went out to Debbi's house and she certainly proved that she knows her stuff. She knows each car and each car seat. We were there for about 2 hours - but it was something that was well worth the time. We feel like we know how to install them properly, and know the car seat perfectly now.
All in all, a very productive and FUN weekend!
So who knows when this little one will greet us. I am so excited though!
We had a great weekend full of being together and being out and about with friends. We also made it to the farmer's market yesterday - something I LOVE doing, but probably won't be able to do once baby girl is here. While there, I noticed I was having real contractions. By the time we got back home, I knew for sure I was having real ones. We decided to hang out for a bit to time them. For the next couple hours, they were about 7-8 minutes apart. Then they fizzled out. I think it just means my body is getting more ready - something I am totally open to! It gave me a chance to practice being relaxed during and in between them.
We also got our car seats installed. Now, I know a lot of people install them by themselves. But we found out about a company that teaches car seat installation for the safest ride for babies and we decided to use this service. If you're in the Baltimore or New York areas, I HIGHLY recommend using The Car Seat Lady. We went out to Debbi's house and she certainly proved that she knows her stuff. She knows each car and each car seat. We were there for about 2 hours - but it was something that was well worth the time. We feel like we know how to install them properly, and know the car seat perfectly now.
All in all, a very productive and FUN weekend!
Friday, July 2, 2010
Cloth Diapering (Part II)
You can read about our decision to cloth diaper in my Cloth Diapering (Part I) post.
Once we made the decision to go with cloth diapers, we were overwhelmed with the amount of choices there are out there! Holy moly it's confusing. Prefolds, pocket, all-in-one, one size, fitted cloth, hybrids, etc. Where do we even start?
I read up on a lot of different bloggers and what they were using. I figured we'd likely have to pick a few different kinds we liked and test them out to see which ones work best for baby girl and our style. But I wasn't sure I wanted to register for them online or not.
Luckily, a friend here in Baltimore pointed us to Soft and Cozy Baby. It's a new cloth diapering store here in Baltimore (Hampden to be exact) that sells all kinds of brands. We checked it out so we could see and feel the different types of diapers.
We ultimately registered for several different kinds. The brands we're trying out are GroBaby (which are now being called GroVia), Fuzzibunz Perfect Size, BunGenius One Size Pocket, and G Diapers.
I love how far cloth diapers have come. They are now stylish with all their adorable colors, and much easier than the old fashioned prefolds with covers/clips. I can't wait to try them out. Cloth Diapering (Part III) will be coming after baby girl arrives and we have time to try them out!
Once we made the decision to go with cloth diapers, we were overwhelmed with the amount of choices there are out there! Holy moly it's confusing. Prefolds, pocket, all-in-one, one size, fitted cloth, hybrids, etc. Where do we even start?
I read up on a lot of different bloggers and what they were using. I figured we'd likely have to pick a few different kinds we liked and test them out to see which ones work best for baby girl and our style. But I wasn't sure I wanted to register for them online or not.
Luckily, a friend here in Baltimore pointed us to Soft and Cozy Baby. It's a new cloth diapering store here in Baltimore (Hampden to be exact) that sells all kinds of brands. We checked it out so we could see and feel the different types of diapers.
We ultimately registered for several different kinds. The brands we're trying out are GroBaby (which are now being called GroVia), Fuzzibunz Perfect Size, BunGenius One Size Pocket, and G Diapers.
I love how far cloth diapers have come. They are now stylish with all their adorable colors, and much easier than the old fashioned prefolds with covers/clips. I can't wait to try them out. Cloth Diapering (Part III) will be coming after baby girl arrives and we have time to try them out!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
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