Priorities

I think I've made it very clear that I cannot wait to have babies.  Ian is more than ready as well.  But this little thing called law school is getting in the way.  That, and the lack of money (because of school).  We've accepted learned to live with the fact that we need to wait to have kids until I'm finished with school.  But we still can't help but be anxious and excited at the prospect.

I am not on birth control anymore.  This leads an anxious person to be anxious every. single. month.  We certainly are not trying to get pregnant right now, but we've both realized that if I got pregnant, we'd be thrilled.

But each month when I get reassurance that I am not pregnant, I can't help but feel disappointed.  Ian admittedly feels the same way.  So what does this all mean?  Do we really want to wait?  Is it the right thing to wait another two freaking years to start having a family?  I really do not know.  We know we want at least 2, preferably 3-4 children.  And if we wait another 2 years, I'll be 29 when we start having babies - that does not give us a lot of time to pop out 3-4 kids if I want to be finished being pregnant by the time I'm 35.  And that's if we're so lucky to get pregnant right away.

Ugh - this ticking time bomb is crazy.  Men in my law school who are married have started families, or are getting ready to start families while in school.  They say it's the best time.  But I'm not sure being the woman carrying the baby, while attending classes and studying for exams, and let's not forget about getting a job at a law firm while pregnant - all of that is not so easy.

And let's not forget that we haven't bought a house yet.  Do we start moving forward with this now?  That way we'll be in a house in time to start trying in a couple years.  And also, the prices are probably the best possible right about now.

We have a lot of decisions to make - and the thought of all of them makes me excited, exhausted, nervous and emotional all at once.  I am so glad I have Ian as my husband to make these decisions with.  We'll be talking and thinking a lot about our priorities in the near future.  Who knows what our future holds!

The Mommy Itch

I do not think I can hide the fact that I love kids. I think they're adorable and they make me laugh uncontrollably. I have 7 nieces and nephews and the 3 kids of my matron-of-honor are essentially my family. I always wished I'd had younger brothers or sisters - but maybe my love for kids is because I didn't have younger brothers or sisters.


I grew up hanging out with one of my best friend's family - she's one of 4 kids and I was so jealous. She had tons of cousins and her recent wedding was a blast with the majority of the guests being her family. One of my other friends is one of 8. Yes - that's a lot of kids! But again, I love seeing her with her siblings - her recent wedding was also a huge one - over 400 people I believe, but that's because she had over 100 family members coming.


Since we've been married (almost a year - I can't believe it!), I have noticed that I have the Mommy Itch. It's like my body is telling me it's time to have babies. I see kids at restaurants, church, on the street, in stores, on TV and when I see them, whatever else going on around me suddenly stops. All I can see are the kids. Almost instinctively, I turn to Ian: "I want babies." He's used to it by now - thank God the Mommy Itch is hitting me after we're married - I'm sure he would've been running screaming from me had I started with those types of comments beforehand.


His response is "I know honey - soon." We had agreed (much to Ian's dissatisfaction) to wait until I'm finished with law school and settled in a job. That means we have to wait until 2-3 years. It's scary and exciting all in the same moment that starting a family is that close to becoming a reality. But at the same time, it feels so far away. You grow up thinking, get married, have kids. Or maybe that's just how I thought. But I met this amazing man, married him and now it's like I have to trick myself into thinking it's not time to have kids yet.


So Ian will have to keep hearing me say those words: I want babies. I can't help it. I am so excited for that chapter in our lives. Maybe the Mommy Itch kicks in when you are at a point in your life that you'd imagined you'd start having kids. I know I'm not the only one out there that Mommy Itch has attacked. What makes it kick in? Does it kick in for everyone?


Well until we're at a point to start having kids, I wish the Mommy Itch would hide away in the sidelines somewhere. Because I'm pretty sure it's a little old to keep hearing "I want babies." And until we're at that chapter in our lives, I'm pretty happy being just the three of us (I can't leave Tessa out of course!), enjoying each other and the freedom that comes with it.

You Just Have to Laugh

It's times like these that I really can't wait to be a parent - you want to kill and love your kid all at the same time:

My Body Hurts

I am excited to say that I worked out on Saturday, Sunday and today! Oh man, I am out of shape! My body is so sore right now. Tomorrow may be a day of rest!


Saturday, we went to look at wedding bands. Mine will look a little like this:

And Ian's will look a little like this:

We didn't purchase them yet because we're going to look around to make sure we get the best prices.

Saturday night we went to Old Angler's Inn to celebrate my mom's 60th birthday. The restaurant took part in Bethesda's restaurant week and we tried some very good food. Many of their items are incredibly overpriced (NY Strip is $46!!), so I was happy we got to try some yummy food at a more reasonable price. Here is a picture of the three of us:

I'd also like to Congratulate Juan and Lauren - they got married in October 2006 and are expecting their first baby. This is the first of my friends to start a family and it feels weird! And my mom is probably jealous of their parents right now as she cannot wait to have grandkids. I'm also pretty sure that I got her hopes up even more as she saw me hold a little newborn of our family friend at the Superbowl party yesterday. Mom - don't keep wishing for grandbabies. It's not happening anytime soon!

How was everyone's weekend? Anything fun for the Superbowl?