Ian left today for 6 days for a work trip. It is the first time he has had to leave for more than a night since Luca was born. Honestly, leading up to the trip he was so anxious about leaving that I tried to ease his nerves by telling him how it was no big deal. He was concerned about me and how much it would take out of me to do both of our jobs. I kept reminding him that people do this all the time, that we should be grateful he has a job that does not require traveling, and that we are so lucky to have each other 99.9% of the time to do this parenting thing as a team.
The truth is that Ian does more than the typical dad. I expect him to be more involved because there is just so much to do with Luca, and if I'm being honest, I am exhausted most of the time so I need his help. When he gets home from work, he has a lot to help out with. We have lots of therapy homework, meds to make, syringes to clean, paperwork to file, insurance docs to review, phone calls to various people in Luca's team. These extra things add up and mean that cleaning is not a priority for me during the day so it ends up on Ian's plate after he gets home. And now that I am back in school, it means he has to take on more.
And while I tried to assure him that this is no big deal, in the back of my head I knew this would be totally okay, but super overwhelming and exhausting. Luckily, I've called in reinforcements to help out during the week. I have said it a lot of times, but we seriously have the best parents.
Yes, I know I will get through the week just fine. We are on day 1 and I was finally able to sit down at 10pm. This mama is going to sleep well this week. Hopefully Luca will cooperate with that plan.
Started off the week by cleaning the hell of our house, making a nice dinner, getting schoolwork done, going to church, and taking care of myself. Don't be surprised if by the end of the week I announce that I haven't showered or brushed my teeth, the dog hasn't been walked in 48 hours, and the house is a disaster. Here's to optimistic thinking though, right?